you could have it so much better

i email-ed sent an email to my immediate supervisor this morning. subject of the email : to seek advise and discuss my performance. i know. how very jujur, gila and bold. haha.thing is, i have been slacking off the job. i lost my passion. i feel like my spirit were just dampen, as if it is having a 'low season'. sebab kerana itu lah i am always stressed out. hehehehehe. i pull up semua semangat yang ada and i guess, the only man thing to do, mungkin adalah to bare it all. hahaha.

but anyway, it is really not that funny because this is my future yo. if i am not performing, i will only hinder own success story, khannnn khaaan?

i love him. (tetibe?? angau lah kau. haha)

ok masuk balik. err. pastu macam, the SV replied me within 15 minutes. debaran semakin memuncak. aku bayangkan 'see me at my office'. wakaka. but no, that one is so drama and terlalu tipu! haha. she replied me with kind words and keep encouraging to keep my focus on the job and to discuss kalau ada apa-apa masalah.

i'd love to keep my focus too, but how do I that? unsubscribe my broadband? deactivate my blog/fb? chuck out my ever loveliest phone? jangan reply gmail budak2 ni? ini semua distraction okey. and pelanggan kesemua distraction duniawi is ME! kuakauaakua

but anyway, i told her about my concern. that i may need to look for other job. she said that our team cannot lose a talent like me (barf barf wekk kepada keberanian aku menaip di sini). from there, i tau yang i can only go forward dengan semangat membara supaya my team (macam team bola lah pulak) pun leh success sama-sama. i know that if i choose to leave, kawan-kawan satu department ni mesti susah hati and susah bekerja. (wakaka, now we talk about routine and specialty!).

oh well, dah lah, aku ni tak fokus, mengular, makan gaji buta. macam ni duit haram ye huda. sila insaf. kthxbai!