slow dancing in a burning room

Y's engagement was in syawal 2008, i think~ gege.. and i have been browsing b2b blogs since then. mula-mula nak tolong suggest, lepas tu aku pulak yang makin kuat berangan. hahah. i fear a lot of things about wedding. mostly on the marriage tanggungjawab parts, and also, on the preparation. bersiap lah seawal mana pun, tapi, apa benda pun tak boleh nak close, not until a week or two, pass the reception date on the guy side. it will take a lot of times, effort, no sweats(yaya,haha), and tear-jerking experience. i am a consultant/vendor. i work with my clients where we have to meet many due dates. not many are keeping the promise, not even me. i tried hard, but really, shit happened. (alasan)

huda, karma!

iA, i know that the prospect of spending time and living life with the man of my life will be A-eff-ing- awesome. but we are going to stick(and stuck, gege) for(and with) each other for the rest of our life, iA. all i can think is tanggungjawab, and more tanggungjawab. i take my tanggungjawab very committedly. keh keh. so marriage and fund saving can wait; our sweet, less-drama, singlehood can't :D. i love my anak dara title so much. i cant be a cry baby, mengadu to mak and ayah afterwards. after 'sah', i am his. can i still manja-manja and malas-malas during cuti? a big CAN....NOT. hahaha. brat.

we feel like we already nailed our the-one voucher, tapi belum betul-betul terasa keperluan nak cash-out lagi. if we dont get to marry each other, i really have no idea to whom i will. i will be broken hearted. i know i am great, (boost self-confident) but i also know it only work to a few of us. kah kah :D

Ya Allah, Ar Rahman, Ar Rahim.. thank you for the rezeki. I have been neglecting my duties. I seek your forgiveness.. peliharalah akhlakku kepadaMu and while I behave to the rest of hambaMu..

ok time out. will be in Johor for the next 3 days. naik flight tu der.. kerja kat negeri sendiri pun naik flight~ uuuuuu~~ memalukan. hehehe

masuk balik.

yang belah tangan kiri, ade detailing kat waist is loveeeeeeeeeeee. but it aint working with position duduk bersila. and takde purpose since bukannya akan berjalan while ayah is giving me away (wahhhhhhh class kau, berangan org putih), *ahem* i mean, bukannye kene berjalan dalam hall pun dgn si dia. i dont want a hall. (zomg, i can already picture a 2 yrs+ ahead program??? *pitam*). i can think of ways to muslimah-ize the baju but it aint working too sebab my legs dont have the length of a model. kurung moden vs long dress, 1 - 0.

NOW. i finally remember why i wanted to blog today. semalam, i went to a sundry shop. the pakcik kedai, bungkus it in plastik hitam, then masukkan dalam plastik putih pulak. i am so flattered. the pakcik take his time to respect woman (tapi woman taknak respect maruah diri sendiri, o thou woman (read: me-aurat, tingkah laku etc). masa kecik-kecik, i was sometimes asked to buy the below from kedai runcit, "elok-elok bawak basikal, nanti suruh makcik kedai balut".

i cannot believe my guts. posting the above google-d image, right below a dream wedding dress and self talk? kah kah. oh well, they shown this on the television. since it is nicely packed and not stained(!!), i guess it is okay?

GILE KAU. rojak!